It’s been a crazy week… in the best possible way. I met a guy. A really good, Godly guy. Today is technically our one week-iverasry since meeting.
(Yes I told him– I don’t care if it's cheesy– and yes he texted me “happy anniversary” this morning. Told you he’s awesome.)
I did not expect this to happen. We met on a Christian dating app– one that I had been on before and did not want to go back on. But a friend convinced me to try one more time…
Wow, am I glad that I did.
He was different instantly, and he says the same about me. We agree on all the important things and there’s no doubt in our minds that God brought us together.
That can bother me, if I listen to the fearful thoughts.
Of course, God’s blessed me before. This whole business endeavor (and its blooming success) has been one undeniable blessing from the Lord. I know that, without a doubt.
But it's hard for me to accept that the same is happening with this guy. I was talking to God about it, and I think I’ve figured out why:
This business, although an undoubtable blessing, has been something that I’ve worked for. I’ve invested a ton of time and energy and tears into growing this business alongside the Lord, and I will continue investing in it. In my head, I can rationalize that I deserve the success that I’m seeing.
I can’t rationalize what’s happening with my guy, though. I haven’t worked for him or earned him; God has literally plopped him into my lap.
While this is certainly an amazing gift from my Abba, I can’t help but worry that it feels too easy, too good to be true.
That’s a big fat lie from the Enemy.
On a general note, the whole idea that you have to earn God’s gifts is a total lie…
“For by grace you have been saved through faith; and that not of yourselves, it is the gift of God” (Eph 2:8, emphasis mine).
Our Abba is a God of infinite blessings. If we sow a little seed of faith and trust, He can multiply it and bless us abundantly. Because He loves to. Because He loves us.
We can never deserve all of the goodness that God gives us, so why do we still strive to earn our worth and be ‘good enough’? Why do we still, like me, doubt the blessings that the Lord has bestowed upon us?
God has literally given me the guy that I’ve dreamed of, and yet my fear taunts me, saying that this is only a dream.
Why can’t it be true? Why can’t this dream come true?
Scripture says that God is able to give us exceedingly and abundantly more than we can ask, seek, or imagine– and I for one, am ready to trust this Truth (Eph 3:20).
It's been a week of blessings, and I don’t think I deserve this guy, but God says that doesn’t matter. I may not deserve my guy out of my own works, but out of His, God says that I most certainly do.
Extravagant and abundant are the gifts of our Abba, friends. Receive His blessings and don’t listen to the doubt… just say ‘thank you’.
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